"Babe,
I still can't believe what you did for me, showing up on my doorstep like that. I felt as if I was living a movie, as always when being with you. As soon as I hung up the phone I ran down the stairs and there you were, on the ground crying like a little baby. I don't know why I didn't just open the door, I guess I was in chock. Like I couldn't believe you were actually there, right in front of me. I think I started crying too, but then you got up and you looked right at me and instantly I stopped. Your green eyes looked straight into mine. I opened the door and took your hand, pulling you close. You said that it felt like coming up for air after being under water and that is exactly how it felt for me too.
When I think of you I think of a lot of things, but mainly of a Thursday we spent together in May, just a week after our first encounter. I don't know if you remember this day, but I do. I actually wrote a note in my phone so that I would remember every detail of it, because I knew that I was going to want to remember it. I was done with school for the semester and I was just hanging out at home, feeling restless. Then, as if you could read my mind, you texted me, asking if I wanted to hang out and of course I did. We met up at Prince Street and took the subway to 57th Street. Do you remember? We walked through the park talking about all kinds of things. I remember laughing my ass off when you told me about a test that you cheated on in 2nd grade and you were so nervous that you almost peed your pants. But most of all I remember walking there with you, feeling the urge of holding your hand, but I didn't know if you wanted me to. Then, once again as if you were reading my mind, you took my hand.
I've never experienced the sort of serenity that I feel with you. A sort of calm that I'd never felt before. I could feel it from the very beginning. Your peaceful outlook on life has really rubbed off on me and I thank you for that. Before I met you I was very confused. I had my goals in life, but I didn't know how to get there. You thaught me that it's more exciting that way. That life is so much more fun when not knowing, when just going with the flow and finding you path along the way. I try to live by that now, but it's difficult when you're not here reminding me of it.
Now, with you being gone, I find myself unable to move. I'm just sitting here by the table and I can't stop thinking about you. I go to school, I learn my scripts, I eat my food, I go out with my friends, but nothing seems worth it without you here next to me. I hope that I will be able to come see you this spring so that you can show me your world, your city. Until then, I'll see you soon.
I love you a million Lombardi pizzas,
Adam."
